June 13, 2010

Ordinarily Random

I've been so up and down this week. From being happy and hopeful, to messy and miserable, I don't even know what I'm feeling anymore. All this week I have been thinking how the most ordinary things also have so much to them, so much that you cannot even imagine. Yes, "As ordinary as it all appears, there are times when it is beyond my imagination."
I wonder how we are always influenced. Like I say, being conventional is always wrong. Not only by people around but the angel-devil in ourselves too. I wish I could somehow stop everyone from telling me, "You cannot do it", even myself! Would it not be good to have a fear free, apprehension less life. Is it wrong to create your very own selfish world where you can add-subtract people, food, schools, jobs..well actually everything? But then I feel, it might utterly wrap me in my own egotist world. In this struggle, I as well as all of you tend to look for different paths in life. But, as they say, no matter where we go, we take a little of each other everywhere. We meet people, we learn from them - good or bad? Well that's up to them and us too :) And that is how we achieve. I know that my achievements (an extra stress to the S signifying plural) are quite ordinary. I am not the only woman to have found the fortunes I am proud of but then I am at least one of those who achieved something if not everything. Isn't it more than enough that I have the courage to believe in the existence of answer to every question that arises in my thought territory? And moreover, I could question! But still, there are times I am bewildered by each mile I have traveled, each meal I have eaten, each person I have known and each bed in which I have slept.


7 comments:

Enduring Spirit June 14, 2010 at 2:04 AM  

Noone is spared from these confusing thoughts. Even the most focussed among us are prey to self doubt.

But the important thing is that you've realised that all that needs to be done to cure this is keeping faith. I'm sure you'll be just fine.. Take care. :)

Jack June 14, 2010 at 9:54 AM  

Sach,

We all have our doubts and fears but that does not mean that we look for something easy where we can do what we feel like. One needs to have proper focus and keep his or her mind alert to adapt to changes which occur while treading chosen path. We all learn from other enroute and that is what makes one strong.

Take care

Sach! June 16, 2010 at 2:37 AM  

@Samby: I so agree on this. I am fine as long as I have friends like you :)

@Jack: yep :) so well summed. You too take care :)

Aditya ! June 23, 2010 at 12:50 AM  

"Isn't it more than enough that I have the courage to believe in the existence of answer to every question that arises in my thought territory?"

I came :?
I read :|
I gasped :o
I smiled :)

Sach! July 5, 2010 at 7:19 AM  

@Aadi: ;-)
thank you for all :D

rainboy July 8, 2010 at 11:40 AM  

never doubt your potential.
Believe in yourself and worship your work.
being assured of self will take you to the ultimate goal -happiness.

take care ...
http://smellofearthafterrain.blogspot.com/

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